I struggle to relaxation, and i’ve seen in addition it tempts me to hardly ever be glad (is someone else singing the ‘Hamilton’ soundtrack now?). So if you face these struggles, give yourself some grace. Wherever you land to the spectrum of ambition, to keep yourself in a healthy balance, continue pushing against what comes naturally.
God is always at function, but that doesn’t mean you have to be. I recently reread Luke 1-2 and was reminded of this sort of upside-down kingdom Jesus created when He took on flesh. His life, even before he was born, was intentionally meant to speak to your weak and to lift up and call those who know they’re inadequate.